Room change! A new me deserves a new room!

Helo everyone, february it’s such a roller coaster, full with emotional ups and downs in so many diferent ways.

This weak I had a terrible break out, but it soon it was gone, I decided I had to do something to occupied my mind, and somehow change everything that surrounds me. So yesterday at 8:30 pm I got everyhting out of place, reorganized my clothes and furniture, got rid of some items, open some space for some new things. This morning I woke up and started to clean the house right away, cause that is usually my second thing I do to put my house in order.

The third thing is the most excited one: to decorate. Can’t stop thinking about it, I really love to decorate and redecorate my house from time to time. But, right now, I am in need of some new items, and also I need to kind decided what I want for my apartment. So I thught I could share with you some of my ideas, that would help me clear my thoughts and also talk to you a little bit.

I am definitely desiring a more mature style, and that comes to everything in my life, including clothes which is something I’ve been wanting to talk to you guys about, but not right now, so let’s move on…. Some of the things I think it’s fitting my personality later are a more natural and clean look: with white walls and white sheets, a lot of natural lighting, a lot of plants every where, some wood furniture, and a little bit of gypsy decoration which I always loved it, but never made a thing out of it cause my prep side always talks louder.

But let’s begin; I have a very white bedroom with dark wood closet, which I would love to paint white, but I can’t cause it belongs to the apartment I currently rent and as it’s fixed to the wall I am gonna have to learn how to love it, which I think it’s not gonna be that hard with the help of Pinterest. Am I the only one obsessed with this app?

First thing I want to do is to get a floor killing mirror, first because I thing everybody needs a full size mirror to check everything out every now and then, specially before living the house, and second, because one of the things I always loved to do was to put some music on and try my looks while dancing in front of the mirror, which is something I didn’t get to do for a long time for not having one since I moved out of my parents house.

So it needs to be a full size mirror, I don’t want it hanged on the wall but placed on the floor, and I actually don’t know the color I want, it could be either white, gold (like an old looking one) or with no frame.

Speaking of mirrors, obviously my dream bedroom since childhood has to have a vanity, but because of price and the size of my bedroom, I am looking for a more clean an minimalistic one.

Very simple and modest I even loved the thought of getting a little table so I could actually sit on the floor and put a big mirror on top of it instead of on the floor, I reeeeeeally loved this.

Another thing I love having around the house are walls cover in posters, pictures, and other handmade decoration. And I think is something that we can keep the concept and change the pictures every now and them, maybe hang a map, do some collage, put some of your drawings up…

And Of course I could miss on pillows and rugs, and I am crazy about this boho, ethinic, gypsy style. So to finish this post I want to share some pictures of bedrooms that I love, ready?

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Hair Acessories Are Back! And I’m Gonna Show You the Pretty Ones

Oieeeee! Hello every, how is your Monday going so far? Mine is being pretty awesome. And during some researching at work today, I got myself staring at some amazing hair acessories and tought it would be great to share them with you.

I am gonna start with basic, whch is: bobby pins are back! In so many gorgeous ways… Take a look:

Second….

I was on instagram the other day, if you don’t know me yet: instagram is my little terrible obssession, and I saw this amazing account from a store in Australia with the most amazing marble looking acessories: like purses, and clutches and hair clips. And they come in so many beautiful colors, patterns and shapes: like this seashell one, how freaking cute is that?

Third: head bands!

I love heabands since Blair waldorf became our queen. You can imagine how sad I was when it stopped being a thin. But Thank God they are back and prettier than ever…

I loooved all of them, but I’ve been obssessed with the thick velvet ones that are all over my instagram.

And last but not least:

When I thought scarfs and bandanas couldn’t get any preetier, life comes to show me I am wrong again. Very recently I start seeing those a lot around internet, and honestly can’t wait to get one.

Even knowing I am pretty lazy when it comes to do my hair, I loove hair acessories, I think they make even the most simple hairstyle, a lot prettier.

What do you think? which one is your favorite?

Sunday Vlog: Hillsong Church São Paulo + Scooter Ride

Oieee!!

Hello everyone, how are you all feeling today? I decided to share with you some of my Sunday activities. I am obssessive with vlogs, I love creating them and watching, and hope you guys like to watch this one as much as I loved doing it.

On Sundays I normally go to Church, I’ve going to Hillsong Church São Paulo since last August, only because I used to love watching their services on Youtube while I was in the US. And even though I grow up in church, It’s been changing my life completely.

So I shared that with you, and also a little time at the Park, which is something I’ve forcing myself to do for a lot of reasons, but specially to clear my mind before week starts. And is been life changing as well.

Hope you guys enjoy the video, don’t forget to share your thoughts with me, and also it would make me very happy if you like the video on youtube and subscribe 🙂

Hope to see you again soon!

OOTD: A Look for Everything!

Oieeee! Hey guys, I literally just woke up, drank a big cup of water and started wondering what was I going to do next, and first thing that comes to my mind it~s to share a outfit with you.

I mean, I think is a good post for a Sunday, don’t you think?

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First of all, is summer now, so I wore this look months ago, but I decided to post now because I know in the other half of the world is currently winter with a smell of spring, so I thought It would be great for those readers. Plus last week was very chilly around here and I was kind of running out of options of what to wear in a summer day, that is not hot, and this look would be great for that too.

So let’s talk about individual pieces here:

  • shirt is from ZARA, I honest love their clothes but don’t usually feel comfortable enough on then, but the day I bought this I was looking for a more mature look, and tough that was perfect, but the ruffles on it are so wide I always have the feeling I look like a pregnant woman in it. But besides all, it is a very pretty shirt, with a nice neckline and a pattern that I am obsessive with it: white and baby blue stripes.
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  • Pants: just regular jeans, my mom got for herself once and did’t fit her anymore after the meeting with the wash machine, so she decided I HAD TO HAVE IT! Wore it for a while, like at this day, and then gave it away, for one reason only: I have way too many jeans!
  • Leather Jacket: bought at Tjmaxx for sixteen bucks, and I am pretty sure is a kids jacket because is size xl and doesn’t fit anybody but me (I am very petite). But you can see more about this at the video I shared in the last post, click over here to watch.
  • Bag: is my dream bag from KATE SPADE, I bought it at an outlet for about 20% of the price, and it’s pink on the inside: it’s my baby!

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This look is great for Spring, it can be great for summer depending on the weather, it was a look I wore for afternoon church, but could be for a work day, a meeting, a walk in the mall, almost everything. Is a lot less colorful than most of my looks, but it’s great. don’t you think?

Hope you guys enjoyed this post,  see you soon ❤

Closet Confidential TAG

Oieee! Hello everyone, first of all I wanted to say how much I’am enjoying writing again, cause around the past six months I was feeling like all the things I used to love to do, became obligations, But since I turn this blog in English it has been nothing but excitement. So I want to thank you all who’s reading and connecting with me in some way ❤

Now we can move forward to  the post haha. If there’s something I’m proud of in my life, is about my style, which during my Au Pair days resumed to pajamas and Uggs only. Lately, because of my new eating habits, I haven’t been fitting most of my clothes anymore, so I’m working around whats been fitting me and waiting for everything else settle  so I can wwear all of them again.

And I’m only saying that because I have clothes with so much history, clothes that I hold on for years because I love it, and clothes that are just so different that nobody else has.

I shared all about it in this video, and I hope you guys enjoy it. Whatever you think about this video pleas leave a comment or your like, so I know how to improve or what not to change in the next videos.

Hope to see you soon, bye bye ❤

How I Manage To Have a Very Good Day (First in a Long Time)?!

A few posts ago, I spoke to you guys, in a very open heart writing, about how does it feel to live with anxiety and how to handle a few things, and I came here with a similar purpose to write about the best day I had in probably a year and a half.

That doesn’t mean I didn’t have good days in the past, and also doesn’t mean my day amazing day yesterday didn’t have problems or imperfections. But it means that I head a day when I felt confident the entire time, that I handle problems with grace, that I took so much care of my thoughts that I didn’t have a breakdown any moment.

First, if you don’t remember, at the very end of my last post, I said something about the fact the having a routine brings balance and calm to confusing feelings., because it’s almost like a stable ground in a shaking world. Well, today was the first day I had a routine, focus on my needs, because I used to have routine while being an Au Pair, but the routine was meant to help me accomplish goals for other people, and when I was working I didn’t have one for myself .

Instead today I got to go to my first day back to college from summer vacations, and I had such an amazing class because I came with my mind wide open to new opportunities, after that I went to my internship, which is gonna be a regular Monday to Friday job, and it’s great not only for this matter but also because I have some goals to reach over there, and it’s four to six hours of my day that gets me out of social medias.

After that I went straight to gym, which is something that totally makes my day worthy, but it was being very hard, time scheduling speaking.  And that was the perfect end for a routine day.

A few more things were crucial to make this “Amazing day” happen (remembering it was a not planned day). I woke up at seven, that means I slept just enough, about 7,5 hours, and woke with enough time to get myself ready, get to school in time, get my lunch ready and also have some breakfast. Which was something I never had the time for cause used to go to bed so late and woke up in such a hurry, that didn’t have the time for anything and ended it up messing up the entire day.

Speaking of having breakfast, not only I had time for a meal, but a had great meals for the whole day: papaya with oats, detox juice (made out of kale, apple, and coconut water) and a toast for breakfast at 7:00 am; cabbage and avocado salad with grapes around 11:00 am; because I didn’t have a lot of time to eat, at 13:00 I had a tuna sandwich and some lime crackers and for dinner, around 7:30 pm I had rice, beans and okra with farofa.

Also I had the time for my morning devotional and for some yoga right after gym. Got the chance to cook some food for tomorrow and get a night time routine plus not one but two posts done for the blog 🙂

The last thing I wanted to talk about my day that I know is a game changer for me, was that I got the chance to be by myself for a while. I currently share my apartment and my life with a very good friend of my, and that means we do everything together, and I really love that, but for the last entire year I lived far away from everybody so I used to have a lot of “me” time that almost never happens anymore, and this is so important for mental health. It’s when I can take some time to think, when I have lots and lots of ideas, when I have (not get) I have to do stuff cause there-s no one else to do it for me, even if it’s just to get things from the top shelf.

I know it’s a lot, and you probably don’t have to do all of this, maybe any of this, but getting a routine, and including things you love to do in it is very important I putted that by accident in the corner and  it almost killed me from the inside, and it’s so amazing to see how I missed the simple things in life.

A few days ago I saw this picture that said: ” do a list of the things you do during the day,  do a list of the things you love to do, compare the two lists”. I started to think about that, and it makes so much sense, it’s a great key for a, not better, but maybe a less heavy life.

Hope to see you soon, bye bye!

OOTD: FANCY OUTFIT WITH SNEAKERS

Hello everyone! Life just got crazy again, because summer vacay are over now, I’m back to College and, also, got an internship in a shoe brand. I’m very excited about all of it, but I am gonna leave my life updates for another post ‘cause today I wanna share with you a very nice outfit I wore last December.

So think with me, It was December, very close to Christmas Day, like a week before, and this time of the year is extremely hot over here (I live in Brazil if you’re wondering). Me and my friend went for a little Tour around São Paulo, to take some new photos and I you can imagine that I was literately melting! It was so not appropriated for the weather,  I would definitely recommend this look for a  Spring weather or a night outfit when is not so hot, but not cold as well.

I also think this look is specially great for a date night, or a fancy, but not formal, dinner,  maybe a birthday party, or perhaps a night out with friends! Cause it’s so comfortable, and presentable and, I risk to say, glam. The best part of it? It fits perfectly with sneakers…

I wore white Adidas with it, just cause I think it`s very ‘clean’  and not so basic at the same time:

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But don`t worry because it looks perfect with high heels also, keep the reading to check it out!

So, about the look: I got this top from Forever 21 in January last year, for my trip to Florida. And when I got there, in one of my thrift store hunts I found this very nice pair of pants screaming for me, for ten bucks in a store called Avalon Exchange, in Winter park,FL.

      Honestly when I try it on, I knew it had to be mine. I wore this outfit that same night ❤

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But let’s go back to the day I took the other photos, just because they ended it up sooo good, you guys have to see it! In Paulista Av, and all over Brazil, we get this store called Marise, but at this specific location they set up this amazing window. So people could use as a scenarium probably to call everybody’s attention, in the streets and Instagram.

I was a little bit embarrassing that day, but very happy to see the photo shoot results. It made me like the look even more. What do you think?

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For today that was all, I hope you guys had enjoy it.

Hope to see you soon ❤

How Is It To Live With Anxiety?!

I’ve been wanting to do this for soo long, I always feel like I need to get this out into the world, but it’s not that easy, also, it’s not drama and is much harder to live with this than you probably can think of.

But before I started: 1. I want to make sure that with you need help look right away for someone, and with you don’t need but think or sees that someone needs help, be the help. 2. All of what I am gonna say is how everything looks on the inside, because the outside usually has a mask. 3. I’m not gonna say any of this so you feel bad for me, it’s much more than that. All the words that are gonna be in this post is for you, that might seem lost and confused now, or for that friend, that suddenly changed and became someone else. I’m also not gonna tell the reasons that brought me to this. Because, honestly, I don’t know them. But I’m gonna share my feelings with you and I am gonna tell you the differences between who I was and who I am now. And – I hope – in the end of this reading your gonna be able to understand more, and help you or whoever is near you (that doesn’t seem so near anymore) to become less of what their feeling and more of who they are.

I always had a bad understanding of people who chose to live with their stress and hectic lives. In the innocent eyes of a child or a teenager, we are able to choose our path, and to choose where do we wanna go or what do we wanna do. I guess we grew up at the point our desires meet our reality, but is much more different to live with anxiety .because not only our decision our control by external forces, but our feelings and thoughts seems to lost control of everything, of who we are, of where we are.

Besides of what I used to thing about this specific topic, it doesn’t come in 24 hours, it’s not sudden. It comes slowly, almost like is building a new relationship, it gets mixed up with our normal feelings, “is just a bad, not a bad life” kind of thing, or, in my case, is just pos, or is just my new pill thats is creating this. But looking back, most of the times an episode happens I didn’t even realized, because it went out the next day, and it didn’t seem important to talk about.

Talking about, I was always good with that, normally I didn’t see the need to talk about my feelings because it was so natural to talk about them. My friends would listen to me, and I would listen to them as well… It’s so not like that anymore, not the talking part, not the listing part also. Relationships got exhausting, confusing, toxic. Suddenly I didn’t have the patience to deal with the normal habits that my friends had and the old me was able to let it go, I was able to spend much time with them anymore, cause it was so loud when did it become loud? Also, when did it become stressful to be around them?

I don’t know, I don’t know any of this answers, but I lost 60% of them, the other 40% are dived between the ones the stand out for me and noticed something was wrong and decided to be by my side and the ones that I was smart enough to slowly take my distance and only talk about nonsense subjects.

The hardest part about letting so many different relationships go, is to try to understand with that was the right choice, or even better, if I would have been able to avoid this.

That might be alright, it’s indeed proven that when we hit a certain age our cycle of friends tend to get smaller. Life matters, priorities, marriage…

Also, people come and go, and I strongly believe that who is meant to be  is gonna stick to us no matter how hard we try to push them away, although with you do have a friend that seems to be so different, try to be patient, I know you probably wanna know what’s going on, otherwise how you are going to be able to help right? Although he might not be able to talk about it just yet, and most of the times, he/she doesn’t know whats going on, and why all feels so different, so be there with you can, do offer a hug without asking, or to just sit by them and be the company the this person doesn’t know he/she needs.

Looking back to all that has happened in the past year and a half, the most I can think of is how confusing everything seems to be. I was certain to know who I was and who I wanted to be, I knew who my favorite hobbies was, I need exactly who to calm my self down on my own. I don’t seem to remember any of this; for a though girl that never cry in front of anybody and don’t seem to know how to hold my tears; for someone who used to louve spending time alone, I feel like I always need to be with someone.

And, unfortunately it doesn’t get better than this, doing what I enjoyed the most, like drawing and writing, and vlogging seems to be such an hateful obligation nowadays. I lost who I was completely and I have not even a small clue of where that girl went, or how to train myself to be me again, because the most horrible thing about all of this, it’s bot being able to control myself, my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts and my reactions to any external event.

Most people tell me to do yoga, to meditate, to do something that I love the most to calm me down, and I can’t because its frustrating to not being able to concentrate, but I don’t get mad at them, because this used to be my most useful advice to everybody else. I was always so emotionally strong that everybody used to come to me for help. Confusing right?!

But the most confusing part is that I have a wonderful life, that I always appreciated, and I still do, in relapses. But most of the time I focused so much on everything that is screaming inside my mouth, because I just wanted it all to just stop, that I forget about all the amazing things I’m fortunate to have and to be.

Again, it’s not on proposed, it’s not controlled, and it’s not something that I can train myself because when those moments comes, the adrenalina inside me is so much more than what I can control that is better to just cry it all out.

I might not be the best adviser for you, because if you got to this point of the reading you know I’m trying to get the wheels of my life back in track. But from a person that has been struggling with this for some time, and it’s so no able to give up, I have a few things to say to you:

  1. Don’t ever give up on yourself,
  2. Let others help you,
  3. Be patient (I know how harsh this sounds, believe me) be patient with yourself
  4. Every single thing has a reason in life
  5. Cry, scream, write a letter to yourself. Let all the feelings inside you get out of your heart and you’ll feel your shoulders much lighter.
  6. try to create a routine, anxious people have everything inside so out of place, having the outside organized might help create a balance to your life
  7. when the time comes, talk to someone, that person that you trust the most might not understand you well the way you wanted to, but don’t give up, theres another 7 billion people out there.
  8. Try to find something, a place, a faith, a group, that would bring you peace. For me this place is church, and honestly with you try you might discover how many people are able to be welcoming and caring and loving without knowing you.
  9. And above everything I wrote in here, there’s God, who always listen and we call, but we do have to look for Him. He is my only hope, and He is the One who brings me peace when no one else is there.

 

I hope this was somehow useful for you guys, for most part of my past years I had no clue what was going one, and what was so wrong that I couldn’t’t live with myself. I have, and still have to be patient and work my mind constantly, and still keep all my tasks and duties. We are stronger than we think we are, we just need to be patient with ourselves and other.

For now thats all, se you soon ❤

 

GET TO KNOW ME – AGAIN

Hello Everyone My Name is Deborah and I’m the oficially writer of this Blog.

The “MissMingrone” happend four years ago, right after I graduated from high school and was as lost as everybody else. And the way I felt back then is exactly how I feel now, like I’m  in need of something new, a space for me to be myself again, where I can feel excited again.

This is the reason why I turning this blog upside down, starting again, this time in English.

And just so you guys can connect better with me, this is going to be a “Get to know me (again)” post. Let’s go?

I’m a twenty years old woman (girl) currently living and studying in the biggest City of Latin America, São Paulo – Brasil. I do Fashion Design as a major in college. I decided I wanted to study Fashion a little bit before I create this blog (that was kind of the reason I started in the first place), but Fashion has been my passion for so long that I can even remember anymore.

In 2016 I started College, did it a whole semester and went on a adventure. I wanted to take a year abroad and the easiest option was to be an Au Pair, and like it was the easiest decision of my life I went, and with some problems and no regret I spent two years in New York: six months in Long Island and a year and three months in Rockland County, to be more Specific.

There I fell in love, I found myself like never before, I worked harder than ever in my life, I got the chance to travel to many more countries, like Mexico, Holland, France… I made lifetime friends, I experienced so much that sometimes I just wish I could live all again.

Time flew, most friends were gone, I missed my family so much, my time there was over, not forever, but for that time, so in May 2018 I got in a plane back home.

And since then everything is been beyond confusing, a lot of stress, a lot of anxiety, a lot of crying, but also a lot of time to get to find myself again, a lot of warm days, a new job, and some new friends. Changes are so not what we expected, they are more, sometimes in a good an easy way, and sometimes in a way that will makes us grown.

I’m finding myself again, I believe God will Help me, and I hope you guys enjoy this new ride with me.

Se you soon, bye bye!

 

 

3 LUGARES PARA CONHECER EM 3 ANOS

Oieee meus queridos! O wordpress tentou me afastar de vocês mas não conseguiu hahah Se eu contasse pra vocÊs a quantidade de problemas que eu tenho enquanto tent produzir conteudo, vocês nunca acreditariam em mim, porque são muuuitos.

Mas tudo resolvido, eu vim aqui compartilhar mais metas com vocês (eu realmente gosto de planejar metas). Quando eu comecei o Au Pair lá em 2016 eu estava grata o suficiente de poder estar morando em outro país e tudo que eu queria fazer era conhecer cada cantinho da América. Mas seis meses depois todos os planos mudaram e eu gastei meu suado salário conhecendo lugares como México, Paris, Londres e Amsterdam. As viagens pelos EUA aconteciam, então, só de fim de semana, e sempre para lugares pertinhos, mas ainda fiz muitas viagens legais como para Philly e D.C.

Em 2018 eu retornei ao Brasile  minha meta era conhecer lugares perto de mim, tanto por uma questao financeira, como para poder aproveitar esse país lindo que nós temos. Infelizmente no ano passado eu só pude conhecer Londrina (PR) e Vinhedo (SP). Agora em Janeiro, eu voltei a vinhedo, visitei o querido Hopi Hari que eu não via desde meus cinco anos, e Santos, no último fim de semana.

Existem muuitas outras cidades Brasileiras na minha bucklist e essa eu vou soltando aos poucos, provavelmente mais perto das viagens com roteiros e tudo mais.

Mas nesse último domingo eu decidi que guardaria dinheiro para visitar lugares mais longes também, e esses lugares são:

Australia

Meu sonho da vida sempre foi visitar a Austrália, surfar naquele mar lindo, conhecer a cultura de um lugar tão distante e isolado e, desde que comecei a frequentar a Hillsong Church (já faz um ano,) esse meu sonho só aumentou. Isso porque a sede da igreja fica em Sidney, na Australia, e eles tem um projeto mais lindo que o outro.

Minha única preocupação em relação a essa viagem é que como a passagem pra lá é bem cara, eu gostaria muito de poder ficar de dois a seis meses por lá. E, tudo isso vai requerer muito planejamento financeiro e de vida no geral. Especialmente por conta da faculdade!

Itália

Andar de vespa pelas cidades grandes, fazer Road Trips pelo interior, conhecer as praias belíssimas do sul da Itália…. Todos esses planos me sondam há anos, mas eles andam maiores ainda nos últimos tempos. Porque, além de ter umas pendências a serem resolvidas por lá, a Itália tambem pode ser considerada a ‘capital da moda’ e eu gostaria muito de explorar isso ao máximo. Mas para tudo isso,s eu provavelmente vou precisar de muito mais tempo do que só uma semana.

Califórnia

A Califa era um sonho desde que me inscrevi para o Au Pair, mas ao invés de ir morar na terra do sol, acabei indo parar em Nova York, e obvio que eu fiquei extremamente feliz e contente com a situação. Mas sabia que para visitar esse lugar magnifico cheio de praias maravilhosas e parques nacionais que eu morro de vontade de conhecer, eu precisava de pelo menos um mês inteiro, e eu só teria esse tempo todo no fim do programa de Au Pair. No entanto eu não me planejei direito e a viagem acabou não rolando, mas definitivamente é um lugar onde eu preciso morar por um tempo.

Eai? Quais lugares vocês desejam conhecer nos próximos anos?